Loving oneself is one of the hardest thing that we could ever do.
Self-love seems to be very difficult. We often neglect ourselves for the sake of pleasing others and meeting the demands of society.
I have my own fair share of self-destructive ways and difficulty in loving my self.
I’m so scared to show who I am and what I love. I’m scared that the world will ridicule me for being who I am.
I was harsh to myself, that was me before. I doubt my capability and skill because I feel like I have none in the first place. Why? Because I keep on comparing myself. I keep on looking for things that I don’t have. In short, I’m not contented. I keep on beating myself because I’m not enough.
I’m not beautiful enough.
I’m not wealthy enough.
I’m not intelligent enough.
I’m not sociable enough.
I’m not talented enough.
The “I’m not enough list” simply goes on.
Yes, I will never be enough in the eyes of society. I will never be enough if I will keep on meeting the societal standards.
But, here’s the truth. I learned that I’m enough for myself.
It takes time before I realize my uniqueness and sense of self.
It’s hard to let go my destructive ways at first and yet, I made conscious effort to love my self.
I respect my self and my individuality. Yes, I’m still growing and learning. I still have my shortcomings and insecurity.
The only difference is that, I no longer beat myself too much. I’m respecting my process and loving my journey.
I’m in no competition nor race to anyone. I’m simply improving for myself and growing to be the best person that I can be. Because I know, I can still be the best.
My journey to self-love and self-respect continues. Its bumpy but I’m learning to adjust and discover more.