As time goes by, i’m starting to let myself live. I don’t want to be stuck anymore in self-destruction. Destructive tendency will always be there but somehow i can manage to make it more constructive and productive. It’s not easy to deal with my own destruction but i’m being more braver to always choose what is life nurturing. For too long, i’m holding back because i’m afraid with the consequences. I become much afraid to be alive and be happy. But, I can’t be like this anymore. I can’t always live in the box because there’s more in this life. I believe that there is also beauty in self-destruction because along the process of destruction i can able to recreate and reconstruct myself. As i self-destruct, i became new and alive.
Also,i reliazed that loving life and existing beautifully is much better. I don’t need to break myself anymore in order to be anew. Because as i love life’s beauty and became passionate in living. I will always be in the process of growing, learning and discovering the beauty of the unknown.
It’s time to allow life to surprise me. Allow miracle happens in my life. Let myself live life fully.