Getting In Touch With Life

Your belief and faith is tested when face in difficult situation. This situation requires a lot of faith and prayers. Often, we feel discourage when we deal with life’s adversity. That’s natural and understandable.

I’m aware that it’s hard to see the bright side of life when we are being surrounded by darkness. It’s exhausting to fight just to end up being more entangled with the labyrinth of life.

Sometimes, whatever you do to improve your life doesn’t make sense.

I spent a lot of time studying, getting good grades, and being a “good student”, following the social construct of what is good and acceptable. But, here I am, confuse and questioning all of my life’s decisions.

Do I make the right decisions? What is “right” decision really is? What does it mean being right?

Reviewing my decisions and asking what is my purpose. I never felt satisfied with the mediocrity of life. I feel like its shallow. I want to feel the depth of life and see the other side of all things. I want to see all angles and perspective of life. I crave for knowledge and wisdom but I don’t exactly know what. I’m searching for meaning and substance in everything. I keep on searching within me. I keep on digging the depth of my being and see my substance and existence.

I want to get out of the cycle. I want to be free from the loop. I want to redefine and rediscover my being. I want to see myself in a new life. I want to reconstruct my life and perspective.

I wan to die.

Be born and live the life.

I want to be alive. I want to satisfy the thirst of my soul for deep meaning. My heart aches for intimacy with life. I want to be align with the course of universe and be one with the divine meaning.

I long to be synchronize with the rhythm of the heart of nature. I want to reinvent myself and see myself as a light and be the light.

I don’t want to be scared and afraid anymore with my own life. I want to see the endless possibility and see the life in new perspective.

The process is painful but essential.

Until now, i keep questioning my being. But, at the same time, I’m letting go. I’m letting go all my desire to control life. I’m letting go all of my worries, fears, and limitations.

I’m in the process.

I’m letting go my absurd thoughts.

Everyday is a leap of faith and I will keep putting my faith in God.

With this great dilemma, i will allow my faith to guide me and see everything in the eyes of light and hope.

I have no idea about what will happen. But, I’ll keep walking and see the possibility πŸšΆπŸ»β€β™‚οΈβœ¨

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

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