Dear Diary: Entry 19 ; Weather

These past few days were very challenging.

It’s a roller-coaster of emotions and up and down of feelings.

Doubts and confusion is evident and I’m facing tyranny of choice but I’m coping.

That is what I believe.

I decided to withdraw my job applications and decline job interviews.

There is some sort of ambivalence. I want a job and follow older’s advice.

Because when you’re 22 and just starting to explore this adulting and life, stopping is a big thing.

Because when you’re 22 and starting a career, stopping will never be an option.

It’s hard to be 22 in this lifetime especially with this freaking pandemic.

Being 22 will never be the same again. When you’re 22 and confuse about life then this global crisis happens, it is definitely challenging.

So, here I am, 22 without savings just a self with intact hopes (somehow), decided to went back to her province and just be present.

I’m 22 and doing my best to be there for myself.

22, and lately I’m under the weather because this whole situation rains on my parade.

I have no choice.

I’m soaked in the rain feeling sad or simply dance with the rain.

Or

I will get an umbrella and face this rain head on.

One thing is for sure with this whole situation.

It is all about my mindset.

It is all about my patience. Patience that I keep working on.

Most importantly, it is about my faith in God and trust in His greater plans.

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

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