WHERE AM I HEADING?
Here I am, caught again in this crossroad of nowhere. Finding my way because I keep losing my way. Asking myself why it is happening again. How could I possibly lost my path, again.
I am actually exhausted finding my way and being brave to face the road less travelled. I always end up disappointed and hurt.
How many failures and mistakes do I still need to make in order for me to figure out my way?
It’s all the same. I keep feeling like a loser. A lost soul in the middle of vast nowhere. Trying to be a bigger a person despite of feeling defeated. Keeping my wounds and scars mended. Attending to all of my bruises.
Shouting in the universe how unfair this life is. Because I did my best and spend my life being the good person. I boxed myself and live up with my persona and now I am weeping. I’m in great sorrow and agony.
But, then again I realized that I am in so much pain because it is my ego that speaks for me. I’m trying to feed my ego, it is my ego that I am satisfying that is why I never feel fulfilled.
Now, I’m breaking free. I will stop living for my ego instead I will live in line with my soul.
I will stay in the middle of nowhere for the mean time. Learning my lesson and letting go my attachments.