When sensitivity and emptiness meets, what will happen?
As someone who feel emotions deeply, feeling empty feels like death.
It feels like a body without a soul. I thought its a relief when I no longer feels everything but actually, it feels like I am slowly dying.
This is the kind of death that’s cruel. It kills me slowly as it removes my capacity to feel everything. I can witness everything but the walls prevent me from feeling anything. It stops my ability to feel and annihilate my will to save myself.
As if everything plays before my eyes and I’m just a mere spectator.
When emptiness invades my heart, it feels heavy. I feel it deeply and yet, it prevents me from feeling other emotions. Everything simply feels empty. As if light escapes from my eyes and everything turns into black and white.
Where will I go? I feel like a mere body wandering in the abyss of sorrow. Existing but not living. As if my soul succumb to demise.
This is the curse of emptiness. It’s like death but not actually dying.