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A “probinsyana” that took a chance. Moved to the city and embrace the fast-paced way of life in the city.

Relocated in an unfamiliar city and took her first job. The beginning of her professional journey. She’s reluctant in life and she took a leap of faith. Her fears weren’t able to interfere although she’s a scaredy-cat. Uncertainty is fearsome for her and yet, the young “Probinsyana” dreamer chose to discover the depth of complexity.

She resigned. It was not a workplace and nature of work that suited her. Definitely, not a good start. Then, this dreamer went to province feeling lost and pressured. Reapplied and worked in a very warmth environment, a beautiful place of peace. But, something is missing. Lockdown due to pandemic happened and she had plenty of time to reflect about her life. She decided to pursue Psychology, hope to work as a Psychometrician and then further her education to be a Registered Psychologist. So, just like that she filed her resignation, again.

It was a tough decision for her. But, she realized that her life is too short not to pursue what she truly hopes and pray for. But, life is testing her. Lockdown continues and she’s unemployed. Additionally, it’s difficult to find an opportunity in the field she is aiming to work for. She has no connections and she’s doubting herself. Definitely, what a combo!

Her fleeting life in the city comes to an end. She went to province again with her broken dreams. Shattered aspirations and fragmented hope.

There she is, lost and uncertain in life again. The young dreamer had no idea where she’s heading. She is caught up in the labyrinth of life. Complex choices and exhausted soul.

She became unsure and fear life again.

Will she be still and let time fleets or keeps on walking as she fights for her dreams in life?

On a side note, I do miss my life in the city because I have my salary and I am able to buy whatever I want, experience things I haven’t done. Well, I live a plain life but I’m financially able before. Then, I learned the hard way. Savings is very essential. For sure, it’s ingrained in my mind and prioritize it next time. It’s a shame but I’m back being dependent to others especially in finances. I want to pity myself because of everything that is happening in my life but I chose not to. I’m doing my best to be present in life despite of the idea that I’m unemployed and my dreams are broken.

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

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