Sometimes, I just want to hide under my blanket and keep myself from the world.
I don’t know. I’m not doing anything and yet, I feel exhausted with my existence. Then, there will be moments that I can’t find my life meaningful.
All I want to do is to question my existence and ask myself what kind of life I’m living. Sometimes, I’m so sick on how I lead my life. I’m tired of trying and failing.
It makes me feel sad that no matter how I try to seek and pursue what my purpose truly is, I always fail. I always ended up doubting and questioning myself.
There will be times that I just want to hide and run away. But, knowing that the world continues even if I stop, it makes me even sadder.
I have no idea what will I do with my life. I’m changing my perspective about the direction of my life and that confuses me more.
My plans about my life changes and I don’t see any meaning on what I want in my life before. I hope to do something that fills my soul, heart, and mind. There’s something in me that I want to change. There’s this feeling that wants me to pursue who am I. Something that aligns to my true self.
But, right now, I just want to hide and cry. I just want to sit with my pain and frustration.
I just want to cry and drown myself in my tears. I just want to scream until I lost my voice.
There will be those moments, that I’m vulnerable.
And I think that’s okay.