Resigning Without A Plan

“There is no passion to be found in playing small — in settling for a life that is less than you are capable of living.” — Nelson Mandela

As a fresh graduate, I’m pressured to get a job and to get a stable income.

I was pressured as if there was a timeline that I must beat. I was conditioned that at 21, I must settled. I must be already successful. But, life doesn’t works like that.

Here I am, 23, and I’m unemployed. I filed my resignation without other plans. Simply trusting my intuition and dream.

At 23, I worked in two different company. I had two jobs. I only lasted for a while, for six months in both. I knew that in my country, this is not a good indication. It is not good for my profile.

It’s not easy actually. I resigned not for fun. I did it because I don’t want to be stuck doing a job that I don’t like.

My first job was not a good experience but a good lesson. The second job was beautiful. I loved it and I enjoyed it. I just wanted to pursue more. Something is missing.

I’m actively seeking for a job and receiving countless rejections. I also have no idea what should I do in life. I’m in the phase wherein I’m questioning myself. Like, I don’t even know where I’m good at.

I’m in the crossroad without a plan.

I don’t know, but I think I’m better off that my applications were rejected because I feel like I’m sending it half-heartedly.

I don’t have plans. I don’t know.

I just hope to be part of a company that celebrates individuality and cultivates the potential in me. I hope to have a job that I’m joyful and peaceful. A job that I can enjoy and at the same time I can enjoy my life.

It’s been 2 years since I graduated college, its a rough journey. I’m still struggling and fighting for my dreams.

I hope to find the place and people that I’m supposed to be where and be with.

My professional journey is indeed full of twists and turns. I think I’ll get there eventually.

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

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