Today, I feel more at peace. I’m not pressured in finding and getting a job anymore.
When the lockdown started, I’m actively sending applications and frantically looking for a job. Even though, in reality, I really don’t want to find a job yet. I felt exhausted and lost. Also, I felt empty when I lost my job title and job security. I don’t have income and I’m back relying to my mother. I’m mean, I have the audacity to leave my job without a backup plan. I’m way too good in leaving without assurance and I’m a fan of starting all over again.
I felt sorry for myself and I even felt ashamed. Then, the thought that, I really have no idea what path I really wanted to take, made me even more confused. I’m lost finding my real purpose and I have no idea where to find it.
But, surprisingly, today I’m at peace and it feels good. I’m slowly accepting my own rhythm and I’m not beating myself too much. There’s this feelings within me that gives me assurance that I’m resonating with my path and purpose. A confirmation that, I’m actually getting there in life. I’m now running my own race and this is my own battle.
I’m glad and grateful; it feels good.
I know that things will fall into places soon and abundance will come freely in my life.