Dear Diary: Entry 28; Another Thoughts

The art is from Pinterest

There are days wherein I’m getting used with my reality; I’m at peace and simply living each day. But, there are days wherein I’m frantic and terrified with what’s happening in my life. I feel like I’m being left behind and there’s no way I can get myself on track.

You see, I realized that I’m not living my life according to my terms. I’m so focused on pleasing the people around me. I’m feeling so bad because my bubbles burst and I can’t no longer feed my ego. I just realized that my perception of success is too shallow and I just wanted to show off to others.

My insecurities are so loud and I forgot to celebrate my own greatness. I feel like, I lost certain versions of me because I’m actually improving and growing as a human. I’m aware that I’m trying to be someone I’m not. I thought that removing parts of me that makes me feel distinct is the best thing I could ever do. I was wrong.

Because it’s okay to be me. It’s okay to be soft and sensitive. But, it’s also okay to be angry disappointed, and afraid. In short, it’s okay to also feel the negativity. It’s okay if I have a bad day and I got angry. It doesn’t make me less of a person. I’m a work in progress and everyday is a learning process.

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

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