Another Day to Be Present

I will say it again, keep going ✨

It’s been a while since I posted. Well, there’s a lot in my mind. As much as I wanted to create a post. I really can’t form and organize my thoughts.

I’ve been feeling so down that I need to retreat in order to rejuvenate. I’ve been feeling so bad about myself and I feel so vulnerable.

I’m feeling scared. With all the things happening in the world and in my country, this pandemic and my search of career, my fears are being stimulated and reinforced.

I’ve been feeling so lost again. Surprise! I found myself again in this abyss.

These past few days I simply drowned myself in watching K-dramas, accommodating negative thoughts, writing in my journal, and doing nothing.
Actually, it helps. I guess I just needed a break from everything.

My emotions were also at peak. It’s like a raging storm, tormenting and debilitating.

I’m still working on myself. I’m still a work in progress.

Last night, I reflected on the question: What I love about my life?

I find it difficult to answer not because I don’t have one. Surprisingly, it is because I realized that there are plenty of little things that I love about my life. All the little things that keep me sane and steady.

I love all the twists and turns in my life. All of my failures and defeats. My small wins and victories.

Additionally, I love that I’m in this phase. I still have no idea what I want. I’m still in the waiting period of my breakthrough.

It is because these help me to learn patience and understand the sense of timing.

I love my life because everything is not known. I have the chance and freedom to respond to whatever life will bring me.

I realized that it is progress and victory to simply live for another day. Simply be present.

Just like this day.

Published by She Writes

She's a dreamer. Hopes to be lost in oblivion but the truth is, she just wants to be seen and heard. In quest within and lover of life. This, too, shall pass so I will keep going ; I still don't know. I'll rest for the mean time.

5 thoughts on “Another Day to Be Present

  1. I have been thinking about you: hoping you are doing ok, wondering what you’ve been up to.
    Thank you for this update and for your honesty & openness in sharing your struggles as well as your gratitude.

    Breaks are restorative. We all need them; I am glad you are able to take them when you need to.

    “I reflected on the question: What I love about my life? I find it difficult to answer not because I don’t have one. Surprisingly, it is because I realized that there are plenty of little things that I love about my life”

    I am very touched by this – that in the midst of your sadness and lostness, you are able to ask this very important question and come to gratitude.

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    1. This is so heartwarming. Thank you for your kind thoughts. I’ve getting by each day and simply be present each day.

      I agree, sometimes all we need is a little break. It’s definitely restorative.

      Your kind words meant a lot to me.

      I’m doing my best to acknowledge what I truly feel and then practice gratitude.

      I hope you stay safe and healthy. Have a great day ahead! ☺️✨

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